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I'm gonna freestyle this one, no edits, no second looks, no correction, nothing, fuck it.
So 'Rey you have hurt 3 girls within 3 weeks what's wrong with you now? what have you become, I know what is going on it has been taking my life and basically throwing it up and down but its a tough thing to deal with, failure, even when you succeeded, you took it out on J, u took out on chinelo and you done the same thing with uche, I know you're a good kid but you can't let failure bring you down, I know its your life hanging but there are people that really care and love you, and you've just been hurting them, I mean look at J, u guys have been friends for over 8 years, you guys dated at first and we don't know what happened after that then you recently asked her inappropriate questions about that time, who gives a fuck about who she was with, she's with you now! and she has always supported u, think about your really bad times, bad break ups.
Now there's Uche, why did you have to do that ehn? I dunno what to do now, I'm onlyy writing this because I feel something in the pit of my stomach thats making me feel very weak and I there are so many things going round my mind, I just have to let it out, and i didn't want to put this on the internet but i know she'll read this.
Let me be honest here, yes it was directed at you and only you, I mean you've been talking to me about God and stuff and not swearing  and all but your whole persona contradicts it, and then I saw u leave wt dapo, dt jst sealed it, I am soooo not judgemental but for goodness sake be real with me what are you about are u straight laced or not!? look you would be surprised at how ashamed and upset i am and i swear im not gonna stop until I get everyfng bk to d way it was yesterday. and yes I'm beginning to like you, can u imagine, i came to to this place to learn what i wanted to and bail. i remember telling peter that something was telling me that something like this will happen, i really didn't want this. or i dunno maybe its good that ds happened because its just sealed it for me... i like u.. i understand if u aren't gonna talk to me but im nt gonna stop until we get bak to where we were even if i have to make a scene in that place i swear i will........uche, it hurts that i said that, bearly knowing you, but i really hope u understand wr im coming. I was so angry when i was typing that because d person that i thought i wd learn something moral from is doing some ish, look i dunno i probably gona post this and never look at it again, my weekend is gonna be unbearable and don't think for a second that i won't fight to be heared or to have a chance to properly apologise to you face-to-face.... uche im sorry, im not like the others and u know that i just want u to be real with me.... and iv never said anything about you to anybody in that place to be honest d only people i like are peter and patrick, well ive known peter for over 6 years but patrick is very ok.... well 3.... u. cos u see even though i have mixed feelings about you/ one thing cannot be denied u r a good person, im sorry uche, im so sorry