Lets Face it, I'm the Blessed one here... :P

When I stare at your Afro, your big beautiful eyes and your large heart....

I cant help but think, I am so lucky to have you...

When I listen to your conversations on matters of the head and of the heart...

I cant help but think, I am so lucky to have you.

I had no idea I would fall for you, but I was completely blown away when you told me you had fallen for me.

It's been so hard to accept that you love me....

So I am still positive that I'm so lucky to have you.

I wont say Im the best there is and I know I dont deserve you.

But I promise you this, from the bottom of my heart.

I will be whatever you need, to the best of my capability

and I will go the extra mile to be your girl

Because you have already given me the key...

To unlock the seemingly hidden

To break all the barriers

To heal the wounds

To mend your heart.....

And to show you how much love you deserve because you are who you are to me....

So quit being an Idiot and Accept the truth...

I am blessed to have you boo...

D.E.E.

......THE DILEMMAS OF A FREE SPIRITED TEENAGER......

.....THE DILEMMAS OF A FREE SPIRITED TEENAGER PART 3.....
FIRE

Oh wow... When I think about Fire I dont even know what to say.....
I'm filled with the craziest mix of feelings!!!.... He has so much energy and so much vitality....
His mind is so alive and so active, its inspiring....

And His facial expressions and body language are both amusing and compelling.... His personality intoxicates me.
He isn't the kinda guy you like for his physical attributes....(He is Dead cute by the way )..... but his character has a uniqueness that is so attractive, its almost magnetic.

I don't know him a lot, but I definitely know enough to see that I wanna know more about this mysterious and absolutely adorable individual :)

......THE DILEMMAS OF A FREE SPIRITED TEENAGER......

......THE DILEMMAS OF A FREE SPIRITED TEENAGER PART 2......

WHIRLWIND......

Geez that boy is the sweetest thing since Chocolate!! And I think he may be the one I have fallen for ultimately. 
He has got the cutest expressions and a lover's touch. According to him, when he falls for a girl, she knows.
I think he has fallen for me, his expressions, words, body language and smiles say he's hooked on me....

But I can almost swear that I see a different thing sometimes in his eyes... Its like he wants me to believe he likes me, so that he can get to do stuff with me. He's always so touchy touchy and the PDA is destructive...

I know a part of me has fallen for his charm, but the other is desperately trying to pick it up. Its a lot of mixed emotions with him... cuz for one , a lot of girls are on his P... even some shameless babe sent him pictures of her naked boobs (N)... That he still has it gives me the hugest doubts.

But I know one thing.... when I see him, my heart does a little somersault and he makes me look back at him whenever he leaves a room.

......THE DILEMMAS OF A FREE SPIRITED TEENAGER......

Its hard for me to accept the notion that I am "HOT" ..... And its also a lot of work dealing with guys who are simultaneously intensely attracted to me without hurting anyone's ego....

Its a real bummer, having to deal with myself when I found out that I happen to like more than one of them.......

But the worst part is having all 3 of them under the same roof with me for 6 hours every weekday !

......THE DILEMMAS OF A FREE SPIRITED TEENAGER PART 1......

EARTH....

My goodness His body is HAWWWTTTTT!!!!! and HARD if I do say so myself....**chuckle** .... The first thing I noticed about him is that he has the cutest smile... and those teeth.....gorgeous!!

I guess U'd think I was infatuated with him, but Im not, He is the most caring, understanding HOT guy Ive met in a while. Usually guys that hot are Jerks and he knocks that impression off my mind with a flash of his Megawatt smile.
I don't really think that I'm pretty enough for him to give a damn about me, but the way he treats me is wonderful!! Guarded, cautious, not wanting to step on the wrong pedals, plus he is Funny and has never asked me to Kiss him despite the fact that he has told me he wants me. I like him too, but I still am not sure he likes me as much as he says he does, so I am cautious with him.

But I tell you if that guy's body touches mine in any intimate way.. (hug included) I will melt like butter in heat !!!

Am I BeAuTiFuL ?? :(

One of the hardest things I've had to believe is that I am pretty, or at least people think I am pretty. I mean right from time, Ive always been told I was quite the opposite and I've been told in the most SUBTLE ways!!....

Well, there's my sister: She's the beautiful one of the 3 of us and she never let me forget in my younger days that my eyes were too big and my nose ginormous; that my lips were too large and I talked disgusting; that my feet were too big and I ate like a pig; worst of all that I begged every boy to like me and I was a P***##@%@&. Yep!!! she did all that. So you can imagine me at age 9, looking in the mirror and never wanting to look at it again. 

Then there's mummy dearest: She called me everything from a Hippo to an Elephant. It wasn't easy enduring that at age 13 so when people tell me my mother loves me, I nod now and dispute it in private.

And then my Rainbow College days: Those where the making and breaking days of my life as a teenager. When the pretty people looked down on you and called you Ugly, you just knew that somehow being ugly would be your stigma for life; and with a bad case of ACNE that looked like it would last forever and low cut, life didn't get any terrible.

So you see, when, after a few months of after school, people tell me I'm pretty I try to believe it, but its the hardest thing to do. Now I'm starting to accept that when I look at the mirror, the face I see isn't so Ugly, but pretty?.... I'm not so sure.

DO YOU think I'm pretty?